Quiet & terrified of social situations, I have created in my corner of the room I share with my husband a veritable haven to soothe my hermit self.  The drive to create is ever present but I lack the discipline & time management to balance my studies effectively, and combined with severe lack of self esteem I find it unlikely anything worthwhile will actually come from my endeavors.  I maintain the pretense that I am currently working to “improve” myself .