Speak in a Week Video

Speak in a Week Video

Today was an exercise in frustration, mostly due to client behavior at work.  On top of that I forgot my phone charger, my sketchbook (my important one anyway), and my Surface Pro charger broke earlier in the week (paid for 2 day shipping three days ago and they haven’t even shipped it yet), so even though I have been trying very hard to throw myself into my studies lately to help with my mental health I wasn’t able to do much today.  On the bright side though I was able to get a fair amount of anatomy study done.  It wasn’t really what I wanted to work on today but it needed to get done at some point, so yay.

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I’m still only about 1/4 of the way through the Loomis book, I’ve got to step up my game if I’m going to finish it + my other goals (namely at least 2 character sheets for my personal project + the digital painting lessons I want to start next week) by October.  Obviously, my next goal needs to be improving my time management.  When I was in college since I just had weekly instead of daily assignments I did stuff “whenever”, but I’m holding myself to both drawing as well as practicing Arabic every day now and it’s getting overwhelming

 

Now yesterday, I completed the “Speak in a Week” course from Fluent in 3 Months.  The last assignment was, of course, to actually speak- we recorded ourselves saying a few things and then posted the video.  Bear in mind the purpose is more to push yourself out of your comfort zone  than anything else, and it certainly did that.  I know my Arabic is atrocious right now and seeing as I have ZERO self esteem I’m convinced a bunch of assholes are going to find my sad little video on youtube and take the time out of their life to reinforce just how terrible I am at speaking it right now and how much of a failure I must be because of that.

And since I’m apparently a masochist I’m going to go ahead and post it here, so even more people can see how terrible I am.

But you know what?  Despite my discomfort and paranoia and current lack of ability I can’t even fully express how much I’ve been enjoying learning Arabic.  When I was learning Russian I studied for a good few years and even so, listening to Russian just felt like listening to white noise. (I felt I immersed myself quite a bit at the time, though looking back compared to what I do now, it wasn’t that much.)  I really couldn’t pick out much of any words most of the time (as in, even define words within a sentence, much less pick out ones I knew).  It felt so out of reach.  I’ve only been listening to Arabic for about…two weeks? Actively learning for one?  Yet Arabic seems so…familiar.  It’s hard to describe.  It’s not just white noise.  I can actually pick out words.  The rhythm makes sense.

To try to push my immersion I’ve changed my phone’s language to Arabic. That’s been a challenge, but I’m trying to force myself to actually read it and not just guess what I’m doing based on my familiarity with my phone, and each time I recognize a word I feel so excited.  So I’m trying to use those moments of excitement to build my momentum and keep going despite my awkwardness and discomfort.  🙂

هذا كل شىء في الوقت الحالي

Getting Started

Getting Started

I had been thinking of starting a blog for my art for quite some time now.  I have a tendency to ramble extensively when I post my work on instagram which seems a bit odd for the platform, and I haven’t really enjoyed posting on DeviantArt much.  (Though, I really should try to post there more often since it has the potential to reach a wider art community and get more relevant feedback.  I wish there was a service that would allow me to just post to both at the same time).  So, I figure a blog gives me a more comfortable space to share my work & would even allow me to share some separate, random thoughts and updates that aren’t necessarily accompanied by a picture.

A second reason I’m finally biting the bullet is that I recently purchased Fluent in 3 Months premium, and one of the “missions” is to start a blog to help to keep you on track and accountable on your language learning journey.  I am an immensely self-conscious person and just the thought of that makes me uncomfortable, but I have found that sharing my art on instagram helps to keep me on track and accountable for keeping up with my art studies, so I can see the benefit.  So, since I had already thought about starting a blog for my art, why not combine the two.

In fact, this may be a common theme for me- one of the things stressed in Fluent in 3 Months is relating the language you’re learning to you and your interests, so I actually have a goal of taking art classes in Arabic (the trick being to find them, but the internet is a marvelous thing).  I suppose a subject for a future post will be “Why Arabic?” (I expect to be asked this frequently) but for now I’ll just briefly mention my goals, for both my language and art, since keeping on track with my goals is one of the main reasons for this blog.

As I said I would like to take art classes in Arabic, and I have a goal of starting that in two months (October).  I also have a goal of speaking with a native tutor by this time next week, and am focusing on building my vocabulary, learning 10 new words every day (and seeing how that goes- if I can go for more I will).  I made the undoubtedly unpopular decision to learn Egyptian dialect first in order to build my confidence in speaking, and after 3 months I will turn my focus more to learning MSA.  I have learned the alphabet already though, since I love Arabic script so much.  I know the “right” way is considered to learn MSA first, but I decided since I’ve tried learning languages the “right” way before and always failed I should try something completely different and put myself outside of my comfort zone by focusing on speaking right away (“action over perfection”), like fluent in 3 months pushes.  I feel as though my biggest hurdle is going to be building vocabulary.  I have a terrible memory, and that’s why it’s going to be my primary focus.

In terms of my art, my goal is to finish “Figure Drawing For All It’s Worth” (“The Loomis Book” as I call it) by October, along with completing two of my character sheets for my personal project in the same time frame, so I can move on to studying Perspective Made Easy between October-December.  I’m also going to be subscribing to Paintable.cc for improving my digital painting skills.  I’ll have to see how their lessons are setup to get a feel of what a good time frame is for goals & assignments with their course.

That sums it all up for now.

I will return with more ramblings to no one.